God’s Kindness to Me
Ever had a few weeks where you just felt defeated? That’s where I’ve been the past couple of weeks.
Dwelling in despair and anxiety.
Wallowing in my self-pity and frustration.
Have you ever been there?
Its not that I don’t have some legitimate struggles going on in my life, but the whining and general hopelessness isn’t helping pull me from the depths of despair. My sin led me there.
Last week I was just unloading on my Dad about my frustration with my writing and he told me that God has a plan for me. I know that is true but the reiteration is nice. Although my Dad’s advice was fabulous, in the back of my mind I was thinking “of course he is going to encourage me…he’s my Dad, it’s part of the basic job description to encourage your kids.” Either way, I felt better and was encouraged.
A couple of days later I got a letter from a friend encouraging me. It was probably a small thing to her but it was just the food my soul needed. Snail mail has become rare, unless of course its junk, and it was a thrill to open an envelope and have sweet handwritten words written just for me.
I had even prayed and told the Lord that I was just going to quit writing. Its too frustrating, no one cares, why does He want to use me anyway? Not-so-godly thoughts from a girl who writes about God’s Truth… but it’s true. That’s just how deep the ick factor got for me. Not two days later I found out that I was going to get to go to my first writer’s conference. I could not have gone had God not intervened and sent a friend my way to invite me and make it possible. Once again I could not deny what God had for me to do. Write.
Do you see what I see?
I see God’s kindness. Perfect, complete undeserved kindness.
Sometimes it’s so easy to sit and stew in sadness. I’m profoundly grateful that God showed me kindness this week even though I was sinful and did not deserve it. I responded to life’s circumstances and in the past couple of weeks have done so in a sinful way. But God’s kindness and love is steadfast. The mercy of God is new every morning.
This week instead of just believing these statements to be true in my mind, I know they are in my heart. Because God in His kindness used a variety of circumstances and people to encourage me. Pitiful silly me. He cares. He reaches down to us and loves us. He shows kindness to bring us from the pits and bring us back to Himself.
Krista Wolfe
666 days ago
What a good reminder of God’s kindness. Thanks for posting.
barbara Waite
666 days ago
I have been struck as I have been studying and teaching about David that God allowed us 62 chapters that give us a picture of David- only 16 or 18 that tell us about Joseph or Abraham. BUt we have so much more about David because he wrote half of the Psalms. Those psalms reveal that David’s focus was on the character of God not so much about his troubles- which were many. Your writing is a reflection of the character of God – so keep on writing! Blessings from Antigua!
Keri
666 days ago
Thanks so much for the encouragement Barbara. David is a fascinating character to study. You see his ups and downs in life so vividly because of the Psalms.
hope things are well in Antigua!
Keri
666 days ago
Thanks Krista!
Dazzlin Dave
666 days ago
And “there you have it”
Vonda Skelton
664 days ago
What a joy to see what God is doing in and through you! Thank you for sharing from your heart. Transparency. That’s what we need to be before the Lord…and each other.
Stephanie Ong
594 days ago
Keri-
I am so encourage by your blog..I read it often and think that God has blessed you with a marvelous talent! What an amazing gift God has given and yet you share it and encourage so many others around you. You make me laugh…you make me cry and you encourage me! Think you for your sharing…God will keep giving you the words to share